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[ He switches to video too, to be polite. He looks...pretty much the same. Though, really, how could anyone tell.

A vigorous nod, when she mentions his name. That's definitely him, all right. ]

Oh! Um, it was...

[ His desire to be polite battles with his desire to be honest. Honest wins. ] It hurt a lot. But I've been hurt a lot and this one wasn't as bad, because it wasn't on purpose. So you don't need to worry about it!

[ That's possibly the most worrying string of words to come out of a nine year old's mouth. But he really has had worse, and it helps he wasn't in the thick of it. The memory of pain isn't as bad as the pain itself. ]

But you looked really, really bad. When you left, and everything. So I wanted to ask if you were okay!

Bullshit.

[ She cuts in almost before he's done. ]

Being hurt matters, even if it's not on purpose.

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But it already happened, so it's fine.

[ He sounds a little forlorn. Kind of tired.

If anything, this is what he's learned: being angry, afterwards, won't bring anything back. It won't reverse what's already been done. Better to be sad, so it comes out as tears, and not as angry words. So it doesn't come out as something cruel.

Why dwell on something like that? Especially if it wasn't meant? Vivi is very forgiving, in that regard, though it's not very healthy. ]

If it hurts too much, it's okay to cry, but...it doesn't matter a lot, because it wasn't that bad. So, I'm okay!

[ He sure developed a lot of emotional resilience. Or maybe that's just repression......... ]

[ Jesus... yeah that's horrible coming from a kid. Someone should be looking out for him. Someone should have protected him from her. ]

You sure about that?

[ He sure has been through a lot...but he doesn't really think about it as a lot, so maybe it balances out.

He just wants to be normal and do normal things here, if he can, and sometimes the weight of all his memories is something he just doesn't want to think about. ]

Uh-huh. [ He nods. ] I'm okay. I'm strong, so I can take it. [ He won't ever say 'this doesn't hurt me', but 'it doesn't hurt as much'...that's something he can do. ]

Are you okay, though? You didn't sound okay.

[ It takes her a long time to reply. First looking at him appraisingly over the connection, then turning away and mussing with her hair a bit. ]

No, I'm not OK. I was hurt and my fans were hurt. That isn't OK.

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