[ derek's been yelled at twice now for breaking into people's houses when he wants to talk to them, sssssssso when it comes to contacting persephone he uses the number magnus provided him. like an adult. ]
I'm hired. By you. You've hired me.
[ also, "hello". that's the unspoken part of this message. ]
[ but also, he reasons - yes. that is him. why did cobain 2 even ask for his name if he was just going to refer to him as "the monster" tho, honestly.
derek thinks back to what magnus told him he might have to do as security and figures he should, like. talk himself up, or something. say that he's capable doing the things he was told he would have to do. mention the... religion thing? ]
I can lift bodies. I've pinned people down before. I don't believe in god.
Maurtia Falls central station. Hop to the Blue Line track, follow it North until you find a door on the left hand side. Go through it, close it, go back through the other way.
Hop. Literally hop? I don't hop. I'm not hopping. Focusing on the wrong part of this.
Is this a test? Feels like a test. Like you're just going to be chilling in the shadows watching me. Shiv at the ready. Waiting to pounce when I go through... a door... twice. Backwards. Backwards? This is dumb.
Was there a better party I wasn't invited to? Seems wrong.
6/26
I'm getting Thai, you want the usual? There's a truly stupid show I want to make fun of with you.
6/27
Alright, what did I do that was so bad that you won't even come home? Or who did you do who was so good?
Laura?
6/28
Laura?
Persephone?
Laura come on, just a word.
6/30
Fuck you, don't ever show up at one of my gigs again, I don't want to see you either.
That didn't piss you off enough? Should I try harder? I don't know it's worth the effort.
I didn't mean that. God, fuck, what's wrong? Where are you? Talk to me, I can help. I don't care about anything that might have happened, I just need to see you're alright.
7/01
I'm losing my mind here, please.
PLEASE
Don't make me publicly shame myself.
Fuck it. I don't give a fuck, I have no other option so fuck what anybody thinks. Fuck what you might think of me for being like this. It's your fault for using the L-Word first.
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